Okay, so its been a while that I lift off from my previous post.
It was hectic weeks eversince my Future Father-In-Law (FFIL) was shifted from the normal ward to the single room.
I have not write about him in my entire blog because it is pretty personal however we do hope over the years that he will recover. Whatever we asked for (doa) still can only be decided by the only One (Him).
For the past 3 years with my Fiance, including the year we got engaged, FFIL was quite healthy as in he has appetite to eat anything, he can still walk, goes to work like normal, talk and joke like normal. What I know was that by then he has undergone his 1st surgery. Okay, wondering what he is suffering right? At that moment, we only knew he suffered from brain tumor. So the surgery was successful however there is still a small tumor that doctors are unable to remove as it was very close to the brain.
Till last year, we find that he falls sick more easily and fits attacks frequently too. Half of the year was spend mostly at the hospital warded for short periods individually. Still, we have no clue what is happening. Fiance and I, we were quite sure that there is something more serious than what is seems. Asked my Future Mother-In-Law (FMIL) several times but she answered us the same thing "Everything is caused by the little tumor that can't be removed"
Pretty sure that it is more than just a
We do visit FFIL when he is hospitalised but still curious as to the answers given by FMIL.
When he starts to get weaker from a stroke on his left side (Includes hands and legs) till his legs arent strong enuf, wheelchaired and the worse lastly he is bedridden.
That is when FMIL popped the secret.
FFIL suffers from Brain Cancer Stage 4. Last stage?!
Yes. It is. Only early of the year (2015), and on top of that, doctors has set an estimated life span. 3-6 months. Please know its 3-6 months that is not a confirmation. It can be longer, it can be shorter. But are we prepared at that time? NOPE. We weren't. But we were ready to hear the truth.
However it was late when we got to know about this. Why? If we knew, we wouldn't have let him go through Chemo (Oh well, he did it without us knowing). If we knew, we could have done more and discuss other possibilities to cure his cancer. Right there, I just said it. We were truly heartbroken knowing the truth that we are not able to say anything nor do anything about it. It was too late.
FMIL seek for help from different organisations to pay off the hospital bills and household bills incurred. At a point that we tried to discuss and suggested solutions but FMIL rejected the possibilities. We just adhere.
We were able to bring FFIL back home just in time for Hari Raya Aidilfitri this year and celebrating all birthdays as possible with him.
Only just 2 weeks back, things got really bad. His condition has deteriorate. He had another fits attack. After that, he was stable but weak. 1 whole week everyday we had gone over to the hospital to see him.
Not just that, FFIL had been seeing things, saying things that we understood why. Things that was weird but it meant something.
We prepared for the worst. Till to date.
We prayed that Allah will take him away peacefully when the time comes and forgiven all his mistakes. Insyaallah, Amin.
'Tumor'
We do visit FFIL when he is hospitalised but still curious as to the answers given by FMIL.
When he starts to get weaker from a stroke on his left side (Includes hands and legs) till his legs arent strong enuf, wheelchaired and the worse lastly he is bedridden.
That is when FMIL popped the secret.
FFIL suffers from Brain Cancer Stage 4. Last stage?!
Yes. It is. Only early of the year (2015), and on top of that, doctors has set an estimated life span. 3-6 months. Please know its 3-6 months that is not a confirmation. It can be longer, it can be shorter. But are we prepared at that time? NOPE. We weren't. But we were ready to hear the truth.
However it was late when we got to know about this. Why? If we knew, we wouldn't have let him go through Chemo (Oh well, he did it without us knowing). If we knew, we could have done more and discuss other possibilities to cure his cancer. Right there, I just said it. We were truly heartbroken knowing the truth that we are not able to say anything nor do anything about it. It was too late.
FMIL seek for help from different organisations to pay off the hospital bills and household bills incurred. At a point that we tried to discuss and suggested solutions but FMIL rejected the possibilities. We just adhere.
We were able to bring FFIL back home just in time for Hari Raya Aidilfitri this year and celebrating all birthdays as possible with him.
Only just 2 weeks back, things got really bad. His condition has deteriorate. He had another fits attack. After that, he was stable but weak. 1 whole week everyday we had gone over to the hospital to see him.
Not just that, FFIL had been seeing things, saying things that we understood why. Things that was weird but it meant something.
We prepared for the worst. Till to date.
We prayed that Allah will take him away peacefully when the time comes and forgiven all his mistakes. Insyaallah, Amin.
