Insecurities.

There is at times in a relationship, insecurities propped up. Reasons? Maybe below reasons from me may be the result to the insecurities.

• Lesser time spent with each other
• Less communication
• Trust issues
• Past experiences
• Dislikes
• Attitude
• No mutual understanding
• Involvement of other parties

Easier said than done. There is more to the list but it may be something unknown or noticed by me. :D

Will there be ways of avoiding all this? Or its always in a relationship?

Obviously, I want to avoid and everyone does, am i right? Okay. This would depend on individuals of course. Nonetheless, there is more questions in mind.

For all I can say, Love and to be Loved is a CHOICE.

So, what listed above may be flaws. Regardless of all the flaws, we still love the person the way they are. But, that is not a reason to be taken for granted. If insecurities occurs, then, we have to sit and talk.The more its prolonged, the worse the situation is. 

Okay, readers, to make it simple, PUSH ALL NEGATIVITIES ASIDE. Bring in all the POSITIVES! YES!

:)

Maybe I watched too many malay movies.... Okay.

Toodles!

Another lover.

No doubt in life, there are choices to be made. Be it for good or for the worst to come.
Frankly, I may not be an angel cos I am filled with too many sins in this world. I may not even be the best person you know to be telling you about love.
But, there cn be another lover. How can one's relationship be so smooth sailing?
- All I can  say, at this moment of time, i'd like to strike of this phrase. There is no way its going to be another lover, a lover is specially for one, and it has to remain tht way. Lesson learnt.
P.S I am a nobody to have my say. Im sorry.

Findings

People always states "Don't judge a book by its cover." Its easier judging than being the covers.

Not many realises some things when they do a mistake or something wrong. In fact, they take it as they are right. I used to be tht kind of a person. Frankly, one incident happened tht make me realise i do mistakes. Mistakes tht i thought it was right.

So much of giving advices to people. Haha!

I know one thing tht i believe, God gives us tests matching to our capabilities. He knows we are able to take the level of endurance.

What i'm feeling now is totally unknown to anyone. Not even to a friend. May Allah give me the strength to go through all this & ease the pain im having. I am very sure, He knows best of what i am inside out. All this comes from Him & from Him i seek help. :'(

Obviously i do knw a lot of things unknown by many tht thinks i dnt knw. As far as i am concerned at this moment, let wht ppl want to condemn abt me, He will do what is required. I dont have to do anything except fr the truths.

Till then.
~ Redha

Training

Had my training after weeks tht i was so tight with my assignments & such. Furthermore, it is nt a good thing as i stare longer at the computer, the lesser hours of sleep means a gain in weight. Hot drinks doesnt make me awake very long. It would still make me feel sleepy. :P
These are the girls tht came fr training and has always been filling all other training with laughters. :)
How can i bear not to love them all? :')
<3

My Monster Girl

This is my Monster Girl tht i've never failed to see nor take care of her whenever i can.
I remembered her to be much smaller when she was born. And, no one could carry her besides her mom n dad. But months later, she grew fast & she have always been this monster every morning till night. Haha!
But now, she is this very adorable & cute girl. Very manja. Still cries whenever someone she dont recognise carries her. By far, she can be cranky bringing her out, but she will surely make me smile seeing her. First thing she would do looking at me is smile & hands wide open asking me to carry her. Or she would crawl to me, tapping my legs.
Her favourite thing is..... JUMPING like katak holding her. I remembered her mom said she is like a tortoise when she first started to learn how to crawl on the mattress. Haha!
Sometimes, i will need to entertain her & get her to sleep the whole time im at their house. Lol!
On the bright side, i learned how difficult it is to juggle as a mom & a wife. The house & kids, a disaster! Haha!
But when there is the brother & sister, it means 2 monsters is a volcano eruption. Haha!
The brother, he's very naughty but loving. He wud cry if to see you cry. And, when he smile, it wud make you melt looking at him. He is super cute! Haha! The good thing about him is, he wud eat n eat. He just turned 2, an apple of everyones eyes.
Soon, coming up, another one on its way, wonder how this monster wud be. Haha!

........

Another monster to my the family tree.

Ramadhan

Hey!
I know that this blog has been very dusty. But hey, heres a post. :)
So, Ramadhan comes around again with full of new changes & disasters. Disasters? Oh wells, like always, there must be something that has to happen right? But, things goes well now though. If i were to list down the few worst things that has happened, its a long list! One of it is of course.....
ASSIGNMENTS!
Non-stop hits like how it had always been by far.
On the bright side, my 2 years of a Uni student will be coming to an end. What a life! Haha! But everything came back into place, making things more easier for me to solve.
One of the happiest moment, my Bestest of Friend, Bbyg Fanna has started to do her prayers plus wanting to go for Terawih at least once a week with her at a Mosque. Syukur Alhamdulillah. I may not be the best guidance to her answers sometimes, but whatever i know, i'll share and help. From books to asking people. Really, it helps myself to recap things that i've lost touch. And looking at it, its great to see that she is able to cope and willing to make things happen for herself. My prayers has been answered for my Bbyg. :')
For myself, im keeping myself preoccupied with things to do. Nonetheless, i will visit my foster family to see the kids that i ever loved more than anything. They are like my own & ofcos, anything tht i can help them, i will try. Insyaallah, for what they have done for me is way beyond words nor humanitary minds that God will take care of them whenever. They have never give a second thought. Insyaallah, i will have a lookout for them. :)
Okay, so, no more draggy stories.

Till next time. (idk when that will be!)

I turned 21.

As i turned 21, nothing so special. I mean, everyones 21st would be a great blast bt mine nothing done much. I was expecting a big dinner outside guess not.
Sigh~
Nonetheless, i'm full !
May is still my month. :)