For You...

I am having the whole time in the world right now, so stumbled onto my blog and TADAAA! Revamp.

Hello again!

Missing for weeks as its been quite a rollercoaster. Contemplating so many times to make changes to the blog but oh well. I've done it. 

Its been a busy week so far. My MakMuk has just recently turned 2 and outstandingly naughty. AHAH! Yup! But since I am having some free time for the week, I decided to just chill out over at their crib and stuff. So yah....

There were heartbreaks. Hurt. Screaming. Crying. All for the past week. But oh well, things are getting better. And that I am sure things will turn out to be way better than planned. Hopefully.

Still meeting Bbyg frequently now. HAHA! Maybe because I am too free of course. Been pampering ourselves with so many things. On our passion for Netball. Losing weight. Do our nails. Eating. Karaoke. Swimming with the kiddos. HAHA. Name it we do it. :) She is the only thing I could smile for now. The only person that would cheer me up. The only person that is making me even stronger for who I am. Make believe that everything has a solution. Maybe it is paying off. I don't know. But I hope, for whatever decisions made, it remains. And that I should not be regretting it. 

Love is painstakingly hurtful. But Love is also the reason to be happy, smiling to yourself like a mad person. 2 in 1. HAHA! Everyone will go through it in life. Insyaallah, everyone has their companion. 

I have yet to kickoff with anything and its already November. Yes, tell me about it. HAHA. I'm keeping it simple though. Really. Or else I will have a headache and my head would turn bald by the time you know it! :)

Okay then. That's it for now. Till my next post.

Ttyl guys!

Oh yes, I am back again.

Hey Guise!

Its been months since i lift off from blogging. Things has been quite complicated. But still, it moves on. I choose to let this blog left as it is, I wouldn't want to even change a thing (Yes, that means I will not be deleting any old posts) I just want this blog to remain memories. At least, I think it is something meant to be kept now.

I moved on to another company in events. Reason being to venture further into what I can bring out. I love events. I love planning it. Actually, I just love executing it. HAHA! Perhaps, there is still so much more in store for me to grasp on. Basically, this is not a stop for me. :) Okay, so this new job, ppl do think  it is cool. Of course, getting a laptop, a mobile but I am always on standby. Maybe now, I don't quite bother to bring back the company laptop bcos I don't use it back home unless I know event is coming up or short deadlines that I will need to attend to. For now, my upcoming projects is done just waiting for the dates to be up again. Yah, if you guys remember on JEM ceiling collaps, YUP. Thats affecting my projects. Oh well. Maybe it is a good thing. So I am pretty relax at this moment. Cos F1 season is over!

Alright, as i moved on with my career, i moved on too. It strikes me to for once think in the long run. I must say I can't deny that I love S (Its an initial) a lot. But I am thinking of so many possibilities that things don't run smoothly. To think of building a family, not sure how it is going to be. Deep inside, I love S a lot more than anything. I sacrificed so much to be with him and its been years. Maybe, LOVE will not bring us anywhere. S may not be reading all this now, but I'm pretty sure, God knows everything.

Okay, therefore, I'm fell in love with someone. I don't like him at the first sight. (HAHAHA) Seriously, I don't like him at all. But as time goes by, he is not so bad afterall. Unexpectedly, our parents blessed us! (It was pretty shocking. I thought they would have rejected) So days pass by, i fell in love with him from small pieces. Who would have known, hate became love. We have quarrels. All do right. Haha! There you go. Like any other love stories.

Been frequently meeting my Bbyg constantly. She is my pillar. And will always be that way. The one I can rely on. And I'm always worried about  her. Whoever that hurt her. Hurt her in a way, unseen. But its deep inside.When I see her stubborn-ness, haha, it reminds someone. That is me. So, yah, She love someone hard. No matter what the flaws were. I know at some point, she is not ready, but i believe, one day she will. Insyaallah. Im ever so close to her family, I am sure her parents can understand her choice. :)

Okay. I shall post on something again soon. Take care guisee!

Induction. And I'm coming HOME!

Hey guys!

SO, its my last day in KL for my training in MY office. And yes, I'v started work. :)

Not much pictures taken though. Im really excited to go back now. HAHA! SG is my homeland. I feel so unsafe here that I don't wish to walk anywhere alone. Anyhow, its really nice to know my colleagues here in KL which I will get to meet them again.

Food here in Kelana Jaya is not as great as in the city of KL like Bukit Bintang areas. Well, you know. Hahaha! Halal stalls are also not much in my hotel area. Boohoo!

So, just a few hours left in office and I will be leaving!! Yahooo. (In fact, I just got into office and yet I wanted to leave already) Its not like I don't like the people in office here, they are extremely FRIENDLY but pressure man! LOL! Still, I'm doing my work. Braahhhh!

Okay, till my next post. Toodles! :)

Sawadeekap!

Hey!

Guess im back to my homeland after days in Thailand!

Enjoyed my trip there & definitely will come to visit again.

Meanwhile, came back to learn tht we were hit by the haze with a PSI as high as 391! Okay. So stay home folks!

I will just leave you guys to aee the photos. No further explanation!

Gtg now!

Wait up for my next post!

Where have we been?

Hello bloggers!

My weeks has been fully occupied. I didnt even managed to update anything.

Work has made me all tight. But, i have decided to move on. Good opportunities awaits me out there. Somewhere out there. And i hope to get caught into one. Or, i'll never stop finding one.

Family has made arrangements for a short getaway. Nt somewhere really far. Okay. At least im going out of SG/MY. Gahahaha!!

My 22nd birthday this year basically was fully treated by my close ones. My lover has been showering me with many gifts even weeks before my birthday. I was fed alot to become even fatter on my birthday month! :D

But lotsa things happened in April. One thing to another. My goddaughter's dad was struck by a sudden major heart attack. And luckily i decided to sleepover when it all happened. The night before tht incident happened, one lady came rushing into the house all traumatic. Well, that made us all traumatised too. Nonetheless, days after when my godbrother gt discharged from the hospital after undergoing an operation, my lover was being visited. An unforgettable April. April did really fooled us.

Nonetheless, now time is spent more preciously. :) More movie dates. Dinnee date. Lunch date. Places we had never gone to. Family bonding.

The month of May has been really good to me. :) Now its already June. I hope it would be good  till the end of year.

:)

Sleepless Nights

After weeks not updating, I will just make a short catch up here.

I have been busy with my workplans and babysitting my monster that eventually I brought my monster to work. Lucky my lover is having his off days to help me babysit. Still, she would not let me go out of her sight. She would start crying. Nonetheless, she is still my most precious god daughter no matter how naughty she can be. HAHA!

BOYFRIEND.
Well, spent most of my evenings with him and had a double date on G.I Joe:Retaliation 3D movie with my colleague. I love you dear. :)

WORK.
Been sleeping for just a few hours as I need to finish up lots of things for work. Hmm. Seems like my work is piling with even more things including my other baby projects and planning. This does not include on Decos. And that is another thing. As of now, concentrating so much on sales and admin that my baby projects is still in the first stage. I just hoped I will not fall sick with this unpredictable weather in SINGAPORE!

FRIENDS.
Not really friends but mostly sisters and brothers. Missing them all although met them a week back. Others, not sure when I would be available to see them.

Okay, that's all for now. Will get back to my work. Toodles!

The 2nd Day I brought her to work. Eating namecards, flyers and she pooped twice!

1st Day and she slept soundly for her aftrnoon nap at work during my meeting with my boss.

And after the movie date. :)

<3

All thanks to Allah!

You've guessed it! My dearest cousin from my mom's side is married! It was a bless to be her bridesmaid for her BIG DAY. She was my closest cousin from Malaysia that grew up together with me whenever im there especially during those days when we were all much younger and slept over at my aunt's for Hari Raya.  This girl has now become a wife. Time flies so fast! I just couldn't believe myself that she is married. I feel old now. HAHA! I wished her to be a devoted muslim wife to her husband, blissful marriage and have tons of babies! Geeesh! Can't wait. Well, I know I will be having another baby niece/nephew in a few months time from my other cousin too in Perak. All my childhood cousins growing up with me are all married. :') Glad to see them all turn to be matured adults that I never thought they would be. Alhamdulillah. Cicit-cicit Haji Nawawi semuanya telah dewasa.

Recently has been babysitting the rascals for like once a week. Getting really mischievious! Hahah! But I still love my lil monster, Syuhada. The only one that will ever be so happy to see me. :) Yah. lil Eiliyah also one weird girl. Wants people to speak to her. And she woke up very early! Like 5am in the morning. She would talk to herself till 6 plus till Syuhada wakes up and all of us have to wake up. I can't imagine if there is going to be another one popping any sooner but I HOPE NOT! Or else everyone of us will go crazy!

My ever annoying Boyfriend... No words could describe the deepest feelings I have for you. Sometimes you do annoy me alot, get all worked up over you BUT I still love you. 3 years is just the hardest to let go. I know sometimes I may be pushy, and you being pushy too. HAHA! To see you showing me you cheekiest smile ever is the only thing to make me smile. Even looking at you for hours wouldn't make me feel bored. I love your smell, your arms to make me sleep (Although it is heavy!) I want all those every single day if I could.

 I love you Cheeky Boy! :)

Im still busy preparing my baby project for my Bridal as well as a job offer. Alhamdulillah. Rezeki trbuka. Syukur.

Weeks filled with.....

A BIG hello to all readers!

Its been sometime since my last update. Well.......... my weeks has been hectic!

Im a little busy to really blog anything as of this moment. Instead, I'll just post pictures of the weeks I had been busy with.

Enjoy guys!

That's it for now.

Till the time comes around again. :)

Ttyl.

Peplum Madness!

Hello again!

This time round, I'm crazy over designs of peplums for baju kurung or known as Baju Kurung Peplum Modern. There are many varieties especially from across the borders. The designs are superb!

But obviously, you can have your own bits and pieces to make a piece. And, due to Jovian Mandagie's designs and textures, it seems that it is being used more now. Its pretty nice that the 60's era is being brought back. Something to reminisce on.

So these peplums if you realise, seniwati Saloma used to fashion them in her era. (If you guys remember her) So, ofcourse, I'm going to try on this Kurung Peplums! Hopefully....

Still, I love the bottom skirt of Jovian Mandagie's. Its flair is nice. Hard to find you know.

PEPLUMS, PEPLUMS, PEPLUMS!

 “Fashion is not something that exists in dresses only. Fashion is in the sky, in the street, fashion has to do with ideas, the way we live, what is happening”. 

- Coco Chanel

Sister's Engagement; Hectic Week.

The week has been hectic with all the combos of me sick, work and sissy's engagement day. But of course, her special occasion has went smoothly despite me ended all her gubahan at the last hour before I could even prepare myself. So, my timeline is getting packed every week. Includes work load is piling and outstanding. Can't afford to waste time anymore, I have to chiong!

To add on to the event calender of mine, my closest ever cousin is getting married! I know I wasn't around to attend her engagement but her family has asked me to be her bridesmaid for her wedding. Oh my! I can't actually believe my TWIN is getting married so soon! She has been my closest in Msia whenever I am back for Raya or any other occasions. But because, I have lived the same age, year, month and name with her, I'm glad she is stepping into the marriage life. Whatsmore, I will be staying her home a few days earlier than my parents to do her preparation, attend her solemnization and Henna night till the actual day. So, will be searching for the right cloth to tailor for her day this week.

On top of that, Having a wedding next week too. So, pretty busy with planning and preparation. Surely, I will update again when I'm on my FREEDOM session.

Once again, congratulations to my sister and soon to come her BIG DAY.

Signing off,

Little baby steps.

Meeting ended after 2hrs ++. Well, its normal to have a very long discussion. Im just too tired to even start on anything today (I know I have like less than 24hrs to bring up the slides). What the heck, I will just crack my brains the whole day tomorrow! :D

Im not very much of a person with much ideas but I hope I will pop some soon. Heh! So, a new industry im involving myself in. Why? I just want to gain some knowledge and experience. Im not really into the salary amount (well, maybe I am a little) but Im keen to start kicking off. Oh yeah! It is also something new for love, a new experience but we just wanna go for the exposure.

Am in need of a new diary to keep my schedule up to date. Will grab one on Friday before my presentation. And will also grab one for love. Idc how he is going to use it but he needs one now!! LOL!

My throat has been a pain yesterday, seems to be slightly better today but came along Mr Flu, Block Nose and Cough. All in one on a wrong day of the week. Baahhh! I think I better get to bed now.

So, if anyone out there, you need help for your wedding, we are a call away! Cherios~

February has come.

It's February again. Marks another year to our relationship.

It has been a long well spent time with love as I have been beside him almost everyday. Be it home.or out. Staying over at FIL's place was hectic and too much drama. Hah! But in any case, certainly i see happiness despite some problems they may be facing.

Love has been having insecurities these days in which idky. So, he is being as annoying as ever & grumpy. Haa! That's him definitely.

I still love you lah sayang no matter. I can admire you for hours. With your "masham sedap" smell on your cheeks. Lying in your arms. And scolding you for playing phone games all the time with me! Ha!! And yet i love you as much!

On a side note, sister's engagement is drawing nearer. So, has been helping her out with her stuffs by far & damn tired.

To add on to my happiness, am going to an industry full of politics but with lots of experience to gain from. Haha! I got hold of both worlds!!!

Still, i have to think of getting back my old weight. Dang!

P.S- Happy February everyone! Its the month of loveeeeee. ;)

Nothing's easy.

Life is tough, but some may face it even tougher than we thought.

I have not been what I am suppose to be for past weeks, something that is unlikely to be ME. Years and years of trying with no results cuts me deeply in silence. Will anyone understand? To be a good daughter or not to be is a choice not a compulsory. Something different from other people's perspective but I'm sure whatever choices made, it has its own reasons. Maybe at times, religion constricts some choices, partly to its reasons and that I have to understand.

Depression is not a sickness, emotions and mentally affecting the mind. I almost wanted to take anti-depressants reason being, "To Forget All The Pain." It sounds weird or sounds ridiculous to some, but in my view, I feel it and understand from what I see. I've been studying someone that is facing this, comparing it to myself. One common thing, in the view of people, WE SEEM NORMAL. Happy. Cheerful. Problem-free.

Looking deeper inside, and she as a woman, there is some lack of some things that made her depressed. Unsure really the main issue to her, but it may be due to relationship, children, family for her. Not much of others I can relay on. Despite all these, family can be the big reason why.

Me? To be appreciated. If to find love out of the context of family, I've got all that love. Really. I have my lover, his family, friends. All the love that I need. Well, not much from friends but close ones Yes. Family? Lacking. Why? Yes I have everything, home, siblings, both parents, education, a complete thing. Not everything done is something appreciated. I work really hard, pushing myself higher than I could to be somebody they would say "PROUD". The most difficult thing that no one has ever done for me. I don't need all these luxury. Sometimes, Money is an issue too. Tell me about it. Other than that, A choice I've made for myself, was never something that is "OK".

I love my Boyfriend so much even if my family don't. Even if it is the hardest thing for them to accept, I'm still going on for it. For this once, I'm doing it for myself. Say about status, i'm no longer wanting that. Let status be in the eyes of Allah. I pray to Him that He will show me to the right path, and that the person I chose will guide and lead me and my children to Jannah. Insyaallah. One fine day, they will understand. One fine day.